Come together. I hate this. So much. I've lost control, I don't know what I'm doing anymore, I'm so irrational. I'm so emo, look I'm whinging in my "diary". I can't speak proper English anymore. And this will never end. It'll go on forever. There isn't a quit button. And all I feel is guilt, helpless, useless guilt. I don't think. I can't think. I'm ruining friendships one thoughtless comment at a time. My friend made three fat jokes about me last week. All I could do is laugh. Everythings faded and dull and numb. I don't feel anything.